After publishing weekly blogs for four months straight, I find that my inkwell is dry yet again, at least for now. Is it a lack in spirit, motivation, inspiration? In part, yes.
My tarot cards have been resting by my windowsill for the past month, and although I haven’t had a shortage of questions to ask (nor people asking me to answer theirs), I realize that what I’ve lacked lately is the courage to turn to my cards again.
Answers are daunting. Solutions even more so. It’s been easier to run and hide away than face the lion head on. But as bitter consolation, it is also more peaceful.
What the Strength Card Says…
Today, I pulled the Strength card. The eponymous card is a symbol of, well, strength. Not brute force, but quiet strength. Subtle, wise, strategic. Tactful and diplomatic. Brave, mindful, but never silent.
How fitting that this come had come to me in reverse. I have been none of those things, or at least not well enough. I have tried to be brave, but it seems I’ve battled one too many lions in the past week.
I’ve hid, I’ve kept quiet, and now I’ve grown tired. My courage has left me for now, and seemingly all energy to do anything else. I’ve channelled some energy into other hobbies. Old games, old movies, old books. Always something old because it was comforting. Old stories where I could slay lions and bears and beasts.
Final Thoughts
Whatever is left of my energy lately, I’ve poured into this article tonight. As for the weekly articles, I might be taking a break, for at least a few weeks. Like always, I will linger here and there.
Perhaps I could go back to building my Resources again. Something mentally stimulating, something worthwhile. Something to make me feel brave again – or at least, more like myself.
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